Past love and an open door...
11 years ago
Friday, 29 July 2011
Sunday, 27 February 2011
Pursuing Happiness with the Boys
Motherhood is definitely one of the main reason why I may be grounded and single. There is happiness in knowing that God will take care of the rest.
I am so comfortable with just me and the boys that no outside judgement, balancing and concern I must look out for, all the time. It is rough bringing up my boys by myself and that has become my best reason not to get into serious shenanigans and scandals of all sorts.
Our relationship at home is somewhat lyrical and celebratory with a touch of poignant delight,decisions and distraction. We fight yet we love and do what is good most of the time. We work independently but when we work together it is amazing to realize that I need them more now for chores and smarter decisions than when they were smaller.
Glen is my first born. Quite testy in his handsomeness and quick reasoning.He is sociable,witty and sentimental. He is a lover of all pretty girls and always get into trouble with them after a while. He is honest, frank and yet hides a multitude of secrets and doings. He is constantly mysteriously hiding from his own family and friends. He appears on occasions and he explains very little...as long as he shows up, we are delighted to see him back. As a mom, I wish him to be closer to Christian and talk/connect with family as much as he can.
Christian, my second and I consider my baby( like Eddi) is the quiet respectful one. He is an independent curious boy. He loves the organization, the quietness and the secret of his emotions. He is very musical and artistic. His sentiments is deeply protected that his anger can be the end of his relationship to whomever it directs to.He is a well dressed handsome young man and is regarded by friends to be an amazing guitarist and person to be with.He keeps his relationship to himself, long term and constant.I wish for him to have weekly chats with Glen and do brotherly things together , in their free time.
Eddo and Eddi are continuously changing from good to grief, amazing to critical, loving to fighters, talking to trashing...and vice versa. They are doing great in school, being in gifted class, teaching other kids and being in honor role is such accomplishments,already. They go to school everyday with different mood and parting words but after the unpleasantness or discussions and disagreements (in the next hour or day)my favorite is when we say "I love you" to each other and hug. I know that life is too short to be seriously mad and resentful. I do what I can after all pursuing our happiness is pertinent to living our lives fully.
I am so comfortable with just me and the boys that no outside judgement, balancing and concern I must look out for, all the time. It is rough bringing up my boys by myself and that has become my best reason not to get into serious shenanigans and scandals of all sorts.
Our relationship at home is somewhat lyrical and celebratory with a touch of poignant delight,decisions and distraction. We fight yet we love and do what is good most of the time. We work independently but when we work together it is amazing to realize that I need them more now for chores and smarter decisions than when they were smaller.
Glen is my first born. Quite testy in his handsomeness and quick reasoning.He is sociable,witty and sentimental. He is a lover of all pretty girls and always get into trouble with them after a while. He is honest, frank and yet hides a multitude of secrets and doings. He is constantly mysteriously hiding from his own family and friends. He appears on occasions and he explains very little...as long as he shows up, we are delighted to see him back. As a mom, I wish him to be closer to Christian and talk/connect with family as much as he can.
Christian, my second and I consider my baby( like Eddi) is the quiet respectful one. He is an independent curious boy. He loves the organization, the quietness and the secret of his emotions. He is very musical and artistic. His sentiments is deeply protected that his anger can be the end of his relationship to whomever it directs to.He is a well dressed handsome young man and is regarded by friends to be an amazing guitarist and person to be with.He keeps his relationship to himself, long term and constant.I wish for him to have weekly chats with Glen and do brotherly things together , in their free time.
Eddo and Eddi are continuously changing from good to grief, amazing to critical, loving to fighters, talking to trashing...and vice versa. They are doing great in school, being in gifted class, teaching other kids and being in honor role is such accomplishments,already. They go to school everyday with different mood and parting words but after the unpleasantness or discussions and disagreements (in the next hour or day)my favorite is when we say "I love you" to each other and hug. I know that life is too short to be seriously mad and resentful. I do what I can after all pursuing our happiness is pertinent to living our lives fully.
Monday, 7 February 2011
Sunday, 9 January 2011
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!
MY RESOLUTIONS ARE STILL THE SAME AND MORE....
THAT THAT I AM GETTING OLDER I AM MORE FORGIVING AND LOVING....so any resolution is just a reminder to keep on going and be the best I can be for me and my boys.
THAT THAT I AM GETTING OLDER I AM MORE FORGIVING AND LOVING....so any resolution is just a reminder to keep on going and be the best I can be for me and my boys.
Friday, 24 December 2010
A dinner with a past...and a wish for everyones love and peace!
Tonite is Christmas eve. Me and the boys came back two hours ago from an all you can eat dinner with their dad. There is a haunting feeling of reality that we are both parents to these older teens and that we ourselves are in the midst of our lives.
I have no feeling of anxiousness or avoidance...it's just a natural thing to do ( i felt) though he has remarried for more than 7 year now. I had a glimpse of what we could have been. The night was fun, light and most of all tummy filling with all those delish food.We talked about our dear concern of Eddi's very unique take in life...and Eddo's growing needs. I talked about my sisters, my brother and my two sons back home. He just nods or smiles and ask little questions but he seems interested. It was like an old friend i have not seen or talked with for a long time. He took so many pictures with the boys and me...just him and me. I don't feel awkward as I am so used to taking pictures of myself with anybody. I just realize he really is taking photos over and over again...he said too that in the future the boys has something to look back how we all look like at this time.
I posed and smiled and got along. I am sure my boys appreciated my being so easy to talk with and understanding of whatever situation there is. It is a good Christmas eve.I wish all of us will always have days like this...with laughter, acceptance, forgiveness and sheer full joy shared.
Hope everyone sleeps tight and prayed so that Christmas will be an easier and happier day again for everyone.Have A very kind and MERRY one!
I have no feeling of anxiousness or avoidance...it's just a natural thing to do ( i felt) though he has remarried for more than 7 year now. I had a glimpse of what we could have been. The night was fun, light and most of all tummy filling with all those delish food.We talked about our dear concern of Eddi's very unique take in life...and Eddo's growing needs. I talked about my sisters, my brother and my two sons back home. He just nods or smiles and ask little questions but he seems interested. It was like an old friend i have not seen or talked with for a long time. He took so many pictures with the boys and me...just him and me. I don't feel awkward as I am so used to taking pictures of myself with anybody. I just realize he really is taking photos over and over again...he said too that in the future the boys has something to look back how we all look like at this time.
I posed and smiled and got along. I am sure my boys appreciated my being so easy to talk with and understanding of whatever situation there is. It is a good Christmas eve.I wish all of us will always have days like this...with laughter, acceptance, forgiveness and sheer full joy shared.
Hope everyone sleeps tight and prayed so that Christmas will be an easier and happier day again for everyone.Have A very kind and MERRY one!
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