MIX of old and new

SERIOUSLY????

This is ridiculous. My son being into music made me smirk and feel nauseous thinking the song "Happy Birthday " is owned by some business entity.




http://www.mercurynews.com/news/ci_23787261/tammerlin-drummond-legal-fight-over-happy-birthday-song

Becoming us...realizing our own life by our own accounts

I woke up very early because my youngest son had an amazing light bulb moment that he can't wait to share and discuss with me ,half awake and half asleep until I decided to get up and soak on what he was excited about...that people don't really know what they truly want because the society had push an expectation from the start. We are manipulated, groomed or swayed to do things that others perceived we are great at, when we can be more than that and what we truly want to explore was tainted with doubt,forgotten and loss amongst the premise of what others surrounding us are approving of, wanting and expecting us to embody...until we grow up and realized that is not who we are if the choice is truly ours. I agree...and that is life...until someone(we) learns to live a life free of self-doubt ( having the tools needed ), we will all have tried to be what we thought we are expected to be decidedly by our own false perception rooting from others point of view.

Take Your Pick...and Be it!

God is not calling us to run away from hardships. When we know our God, we don't have to run from things.JM

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I just passed another grueling hardship with my son. When everybody is saying and telling or suggesting for me to get tougher and kick their behind,I did what I know I need to do . My being evolved from  His grace and great schooling in life made me thrived and passed the fence of confusion,pain and disillusions.

I know no anger...and I know only forgiveness and letting go. I reacted and I did some  questioning but I never went through giving up  the hope for a good come out.

My son has come in full circle. He is making  amends. He is changed but not the same. He has grown and he decided that what he went through is something exciting. He thought it was awesome considering that his school life has been boring and uneventful. Funny thing is, I agreed. I know, too, that the devil played a big part on that and I crushed it. I won.

 He was  angry and spiteful  to me,his brother and father. I saw his pain through all his avoidance then. I talked to God everyday to clear my sons thoughts and touch his heart. I pass no real anger because I know it was a waste of good energy that I can use for faith and love  I can bestow to all my kids not just focused on him. I am not a perfect person but I perfected my handling of situations by not feeling my way through but trusting my gut and God that it is all just another small bump on the road of my life.

My closest friends knew what  happened and how I coped,handled and managed my life with these boys. For me, It was all an illusion and I knew what to make of it and how to vanish the doubt and remain sane and happy even with tears.

I am fulfilling this gift of deeper understanding and sharing to  all who may want to listen and hopefully grasp the idea of life...the reality of life...and the illusion that's in life. I am still a student yet departed from fear and doubt.

How about you and your testy situation? Are you surrendering?Are you angry to the point of giving up? Are you  feeling unheard and vengeful? Are you hurting so bad you can't see any positive thing to come out of it? Are you being attacked by the negative forces around your life?

The real question is are you in it or looking at it? 

 You see,  how you take it, effects your being...or not.

Collect yourself, think about it and come back.

Now, are you still crying...or just asking? 

Take your pick...and be it.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

A new beginning...wishing all the best! 

My son's 18th Birthday today is something that makes me think much deeper about my kids future and mine. It has been a long journey and this is just barely a quarter of his life. I hope he returns to being as happy as much as enthusiastic regarding his schooling and music. It might be that  his health condition and gap from his brother contributed to his loneliness. I am stunned and confuse of what has been going on with my boys. 

I can imagine now how it must have been really difficult for my two boys when I left back home. I need to rectify most of what can be done yet their feelings are their own to heal and prepare for renewal and rebirth.

This is a new year and everyday is such a beginning that I wish and  hope they will take advantage of such opportunity to make new steps and erase any negative thoughts. It is the start and hoping never goes out of fashion...especially when everyone is wanting to  have another chance as much and as often as they can.

WELCOME and celebrate this New Year with another CHANCE OF NEW BEGINNING and  EVERY Waking day! FORGIVE AND BE MERRY!

HAVE A LOVELY 2012!