I had a quiet good Christmas celebration at home with my boys. It is a different vibe now that my youngest has become more distant, deeply eccentric and mildly disturbing ( playing piano sometimes till 1am and being angry /upset when asked to stopped).
The dynamics of my family had changed. It is sad yet I am not giving up...after all,  I am still raising them as courageously as I can.
I am sorting what I can with Gods help to maintain order and keep the love and faith to each other.
My visit  back home helped very little yet am so happy that I was able to bring him home with me.

My situation is difficult and frustrating at best. I know God is telling me to press on and always rely on him as I can never do it alone. May God's amazing blessing be known to my children as clear as the sky in summer.

WORTH Keeping, learning and passing to the next generation....

http://www.matchmove.com/news/article/a-fathers-message-from-beyond-the-grave

Pursuing Happiness with the Boys

Motherhood is definitely one of the main reason why I may be grounded and single. There is happiness in knowing that God will take care of the rest.

I am so comfortable with just me and the boys that no outside judgement, balancing and concern I must look out for, all the time. It is rough bringing up my boys by myself and that has become my best reason not to get into serious shenanigans and scandals of all sorts.

Our relationship at home is somewhat lyrical and celebratory with a touch of poignant delight,decisions and distraction. We fight yet we love and do what is good most of the time. We work independently but when we work together it is amazing to realize that I need them more now for chores and smarter decisions than when they were smaller.

Glen is my first born. Quite testy in his handsomeness and quick reasoning.He is sociable,witty and sentimental. He is a lover of all pretty girls and always get into trouble with them after a while. He is honest, frank and yet hides a multitude of secrets and doings. He is constantly mysteriously hiding from his own family and friends. He appears on occasions and he explains very little...as long as he shows up, we are delighted to see him back. As a mom, I wish him to be closer to Christian and talk/connect with family as much as he can.

Christian, my second and I consider my baby( like Eddi) is the quiet respectful one. He is an independent curious boy. He loves the organization, the quietness and the secret of his emotions. He is very musical and artistic. His sentiments is deeply protected that his anger can be  the end  of his relationship to whomever it directs to.He is a well dressed handsome young man and is  regarded by friends to be an amazing guitarist and person to be with.He keeps his relationship to himself, long term and constant.I wish for him to have weekly chats with Glen and do brotherly things together , in their free time.

Eddo and Eddi are continuously changing from good to grief, amazing to critical, loving to fighters, talking to trashing...and vice versa. They are doing great in school, being in gifted class, teaching other kids and being in honor role is such accomplishments,already. They go to school everyday with different mood and parting words but after the unpleasantness or discussions and disagreements (in the next hour or day)my favorite is when we say "I love you"  to each other and hug. I know that life is too short to be seriously mad and resentful. I do what I can after all  pursuing our happiness is pertinent to living our lives fully.

Valentines...Have a happy one!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

MY RESOLUTIONS ARE STILL THE SAME AND MORE....

THAT THAT I AM GETTING OLDER I AM MORE FORGIVING AND LOVING....so any resolution is just a reminder to keep on going and be the best I can be for me and my boys.