God is not calling us to run away from hardships. When we know our God, we don't have to run from things.JM
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I just passed another grueling hardship with my son. When everybody is saying and telling or suggesting for me to get tougher and kick their behind,I did what I know I need to do . My being evolved from His grace and great schooling in life made me thrived and passed the fence of confusion,pain and disillusions.
I know no anger...and I know only forgiveness and letting go. I reacted and I did some questioning but I never went through giving up the hope for a good come out.
My son has come in full circle. He is making amends. He is changed but not the same. He has grown and he decided that what he went through is something exciting. He thought it was awesome considering that his school life has been boring and uneventful. Funny thing is, I agreed. I know, too, that the devil played a big part on that and I crushed it. I won.
He was angry and spiteful to me,his brother and father. I saw his pain through all his avoidance then. I talked to God everyday to clear my sons thoughts and touch his heart. I pass no real anger because I know it was a waste of good energy that I can use for faith and love I can bestow to all my kids not just focused on him. I am not a perfect person but I perfected my handling of situations by not feeling my way through but trusting my gut and God that it is all just another small bump on the road of my life.
My closest friends knew what happened and how I coped,handled and managed my life with these boys. For me, It was all an illusion and I knew what to make of it and how to vanish the doubt and remain sane and happy even with tears.
I am fulfilling this gift of deeper understanding and sharing to all who may want to listen and hopefully grasp the idea of life...the reality of life...and the illusion that's in life. I am still a student yet departed from fear and doubt.
How about you and your testy situation? Are you surrendering?Are you angry to the point of giving up? Are you feeling unheard and vengeful? Are you hurting so bad you can't see any positive thing to come out of it? Are you being attacked by the negative forces around your life?
The real question is are you in it or looking at it?
You see, how you take it, effects your being...or not.
Collect yourself, think about it and come back.
Now, are you still crying...or just asking?
Take your pick...and be it.
