A dinner with a past...and a wish for everyones love and peace!

Tonite is Christmas eve. Me and the boys came back two hours ago from an all you can eat dinner with their dad. There is a haunting feeling of reality that we are both parents to these older teens and that we ourselves are in the midst  of our lives.
I have no feeling of anxiousness or avoidance...it's just a natural thing to do ( i felt) though he has remarried for more than 7 year now. I had a glimpse of what we could have been. The night was fun, light and most of all tummy filling with all those delish food.We talked about our dear concern of Eddi's very unique take in life...and Eddo's growing needs. I talked about my sisters, my brother and my two sons back home. He just nods or smiles and ask little questions but he seems interested. It was like an old friend i have not seen or talked with for a long time. He took so many pictures with the boys and me...just him and me. I don't feel awkward as I am so used to taking pictures of myself with anybody. I just realize he really is taking photos over and over again...he said too that in the future  the boys has something to look back how we all look like at this time.
I posed and smiled and got along. I am sure my boys appreciated my being so easy to talk with and understanding of whatever situation there is. It is a good Christmas eve.I wish all of us will always have days like this...with laughter, acceptance, forgiveness and sheer full joy shared.

Hope everyone sleeps tight and prayed so that Christmas will be an easier and happier day again for everyone.Have A very kind and MERRY one!